If you cant choose the right and cant prevent the wrong even , then you are at your own misery ! Sometimes , we cant distinguish between right and wrong. Often , we are able to distinguish , but then , unable to figure out what step to be taken next. Sometimes , both situations seem to be equally correct , something i may call a dillemma . If they are really equally correct , then whatever we choose , the either way is equally acceptable !
But the problem which most of us face is that for a moment , we think of a particular situation to be favourable , but the very next moment , our thoughts take a turnaround and the other possibility seems equally luring. Now the poor human being is left stranded alone , he thinks and thinks and thinks , thinks without a direction , looks here and there , searches for someone to guide him , but when everyone seems to give contrasting suggessions , he is left with his own misery again !
Quite a long gap indeed ……. hmm …….. around 2 months since i last wrote my blog ! And quite a many and new things to be shared in this new one , which i have already given a curious beginning.
My previous post was quite arbit …….. naah , it was ridiculous ….. ohh no ……. it was boring ……….. too many suggestions i received in a last few days , which have made me much more susceptible to versatile appreciations. But ya i am happy that at least people read it ! Hehehehe , so i decided to write , or rather i must say , at least try to write something sensible in my next post. So here i go with something true , something important as well , and something which i felt and experienced in excess in last few days.
Decisions are meant for everybody , and you cant expect to be spared off from them. When the people you feel yourself close to , stand against each other publicly and personally , and you have to make your own stand , then here’s when your true rigidity and judgement comes to test. Your vulnerability to influence is exposed to your nears and dears , and moreover , to yourself. People at IIT who know me know very well what i am talking about. Its difficult to make your strong and tough stand in front of all those who have been hitherto your beneficiaries. I often felt guilty of myself . But alas ……… Life Demands Decisions at every turn , at every hour of time , and of course , it is this decision-making power which makes me strong with every decision. I love making decisions , be it wrong , whether it takes time more than required , but if it was “me” who “decided” , then a jewel gets added to my self-confidence , and it then reduces the time taken for initiating the next decision !
……. and when i “decide” to live happily on this earth , that would be the biggest day of my life !
Second sem started with fresh breeze ……….. at least i know this time what are the different possible directions where i can step ahead , and where i should ! Fresh breeze is momentary , but its freshness can be made longlasting .IIT is a place of extremas. Only someone who has experienced life here can describe it , and that too , just in traces ; coz there is so much to trace. But one thing is for sure …….. IIT for once makes you alienated fron your home and old friends. I dont know whether its with IIT or with any other college , or may be its just with myself . Me alone , and i may be completely wrong in blaming IIT for that.
But thats truely a matter which made me think of myself ……… have i changed ? Am i getting feelingless ? I went back to my home at weekend for 2 days ……….. i should have been nostalgic coz it was after so many days . But i just went home mechanically , watched movies , slept , spent time on gtalk , packed my bag , and came back ………. lying to myself that i was happy being at home on weekend. When i was on my return , i realised what all i had missed at my dream city Meerut. I saw boys and girls flying on activas and eternos for caoching classes ( It made me complexed as i myself havent got the privilage yet to ride with a girl even after coming to IIT !) . The same stationary shop , rashan ki dukaan , the same school where i spent those wonderful years preparing for JEE to reach this hellnuma place. And ofcourse , my home , my best friends who were my friends at the time when ” i was not an IITian” ………… why was i unable to feel all those things is a concern for me ………. why i am getting too much mechanical and habitual of taking things taken for granted.
I had thought a lot to write before i started , but now i have forgotten all those stuff and surely i have deviated from what i wanted to write. Many of my friends say i write after long gaps , i will definitely try to post the next blog soon.
Snehil.
This blog ended abruptly ……….. sorry but my own mind went blank !
Acknowledgements – All my friends 🙂
Snehil Basoya said – Dedicated to Asin , Mahii Gill , Lara Dutta and Sonam Kapoor ………….. for their beautiful performances in recent times.
I am Myself 