Why to control your Emotions?

Why does it happen that someday out of our lives, we are bestowed to live in a dream world, when everything seems to be just perfect !!!

Why does it happen that someday out of our lives, nothing seems to be in place, everything becomes a mishap, infact, it is not exactly a mishap in itself, it SEEMS to be one of them rather.

When smiles persist 24×7 and eyes shine with luminous intensity.

When even slight catalysts of something mistakenly said or accidentally related or remembered from past or some girl or some girl-friend causes whole day being thrown into a frustrated dustbin.

When your feet and mind run quick, you think fast, analyse faster and decide fastest on everything that comes under your way.

When you wanna cry hard, but you find a shoulder only when your tears have dried up.

When everyone seems a friend. And when you solve anyone’s headaches on tips of your fingers and your own headaches seem vanished for centuries.

When you are unable to find anyone to talk to in this harsh world.

When you spend continuous hours sitting on your chair, staring blank at your laptop, doing nothing.

 

Emotions rule us. They dominate us. In fact, they cause delay and come in way between our persistent problems and their quick fix solutions.

We succumble to the influence of others on us. We surrender to our own mood swings and accept defeat from ‘influencing’ outside agents of the world.

[We start disliking a movie just because the person sitting next to us is criticising it too much.

OR

You start loving a girl (with whom you never talked, just bumped into her ridiculously some unlucky day) once your friends tease you with her name for several months !!! ]

People say – let off your emotions. It keeps you balanced, devoid of frustrations and cheerful in life. Such a hypocrisy !!! Over-cheerfulness for a long time period has often invited me troubles. And gloomy gloomy sad atmosphere drags me with itself to nowhere.

Its just that for some last couple of weeks, I am driven into this weird world of emotions and feelings. Year 2010 has been, apart from a few big incidences, for me, devoid of all emotions and fairy tale fantasies. But nowadays, may be it’s the incoming monsoon or the second half of the year beginning itself, I get perturbed easily, get happy on little things, become annoyed on everything odd I face and often find myself blank – Where to go from here onwards!!! I feel lazy when I shouldn’t and work frivolously where not required. Something is lost.

Something is missing.

These sudden mood changes are making me week once again, they have returned, I had left them far behind months ago. Then why have they begun to distract me once again.

I find myself at certain conclusions with certain opinions, but most of the time, I am left with blankness …

directionless …..

confused and not happy with whatever way presently days are passing on.

Don’t know whether Not TO or Not TO control these emotions.

Coz if I don’t, then what. And if I do, then how!

Snehil Basoya