Snehil Calling Snehil- April 19

You look so apprehended, isn’t it !

Me??? What rubbish, I am not.

Well you are.

How can you be so confident. After all, who are you to figure out what am I up to.

I am yourself.

Oh come on !!!!!!! Numerous times you might have strangled me with this super-divine version of yours. In fact …..

Don’t you ever think this super-divine version  of you has reeped more answers for you than your questions?

NO

Too blunt to say that. You look confused actually.

Now whats that?

You are not happy with your life.

I AM.

Just shut up and listen.

Listen what?

If your heart is aching and your mind is tired, should I sort it out for you or rather let you suffer.

[Silence]

Let me speak now.

As always.

You are not satisfied with the way your present days are running in front of you. You show to people that you are happy. You speak happy. You write in your blogs happy. You tell your parents and close friends that everything is fine. You keep smiling. You keep joking with every other unsatisfied person who comes your way. Just tell me, what compels you to live in such hypocrisy?

99% population of IIT Delhi is unsatisfied and hypocrite. Whats wrong if I portray myself wrong in front of myself. At least I can say to me that I am happy.

There is a difference in saying and being.

Don’t repeat that lecture n^th number of time. Everyone in IIT-D is a liar – a liar to himself. Everyone dwells here in the illusion of success and failure. These Top 2000 brains of the nation are a flock of sheep. In fact, they reached here the same way. Parents tell heir children right in 7^th and 8^th that their only and only GOAL in life is IIT. Everyone prepares JEE blind folded. This year, India had 4.72 lakhs of that blind sheep flock.

When the brightest minds of the nation clash together, hurricanes are bound to arise. More the mind sharpens , more easily it gets crushed or disturbed. You are not happy. Short term happiness is what the bulk of unsatisfied people like you seek out for. Long term satisfaction requires time and patience, waiting for which people give up at IIT.

Who said I am not satisfied with my life.

In fact, you are. But you aren’t. This time you are lying. You have achieved so much in your past two years at IIT. Certain avenues which others can never even imagine of ! But when turning up to satisfaction, you think of those things which you always wished to achieve, but could never, and you never think of your success which you have already conquered. You first blame your luck, then you blame others, and when the limit of blame game crosses several thresholds, you indulge into a torturous feeling of hatred with yourself.

So this way, every person on this earth would end up hating himself, as everyone has infinite demands and dreams unsatisfied.

This is not the truth as you yourself are well aware. Satisfaction is not running away from challenges. Satisfaction does not mean that you stop dreaming and making challenges for yourself. Satisfaction is in fact accepting the challenges which you yourself have build for you, not those which this world has set up for you to linger in.

Satisfaction in itself is a challenge.

The biggest challenge in this universe. It is an outcome of self-control. And the outcome of satisfaction is the biggest asset possible ……

What is that?

Happiness !!!

Wow !!!!

Happiness is what a human being always seeks for ……. whatever he does in the life.

But how to know which is the best way to be happy. I always oscillate in dilemmas regarding finding happiness between two different decisions, which may give me equal amount of happiness, of course I don’t know before hand where I will be getting positive outcome.

I think it’s enough for today.

What?

Let the seeds of satisfaction sow deep inside you for the time being. Ponder over your true satisfactions. Don’t think of success alone, search for satisfaction within failures. Happiness may come automatically. I will call soon again …

Hey, Snehil wait ……

Good Bye Snehil. Let the Quest continue ……………….. !!!!!!!!

 

Pyaar ……………

 

It has been exactly one year since I wrote my first blog on Love; nothing could have been better to resume my blogging once again than this close-to-my-heart anniversary. And guess what ! My blog returns again with the same uncensored area of specialisation ………. Pyaar !!

This very word “Pyaar” had kept me busy throughout my last year. I kept experiencing a lot many hellnuma experiences, learnt a lot from relations, discovered more about friendships, and most importantly, wrote so many blogs on Love and Relations which made me feel as if I am really a blogger. Honestly speaking, and I am well dignified to say, that this has been the first semester in IIT when I didn’t have a girl in my life. To tell you frankly, the peace of mind which I got now, the time which I finally discovered for myself, for which I craved throughout my earlier semesters, have turned me into a more mature citizen of my country who doesn’t spend his precious time building castles of love and fantasies in free air.

Love for me had always been a mystery, for I could never achieve a stable relationship despite my best efforts. Now standing on the hilltop, watching my freshers doing the same thing with their lives, forces me to reflect once again on my ideologies and lessons learnt so far.

When you love someone deep in your heart, above all material expectations, above all reckless trivial rebukes people around make on you, above all what the world may think of or what the consequences may be, that is, an infinite love which I call ……….. it takes a lot of time to cease once you decide to finish it off owing to any unreasonable or reasonable reason. Sometimes its not written in the nature for you to live together, and if the love is really true and whole of the sentiments are attached, it may take years or months to come out. What I have experienced is that even when you come out, you don’t forget it either !!!

Coming out of a relation simply means that you no more take pain, you no more allow her to dominate your day to day activities by possessing your mind throughout, you no more EXPECT anything, you have come out of the burden of experiencing a commitment, you have reached a mind state when the aftermaths and side effects of a breakup have diluted and you are back to a rejenuvated individual beginning to live his own life. But you can never forget the girl !!!! You remember her often, wish to see her, meet her, talk to her again and again and when of course you are unable to do that, you smile and smile and smile …………..

That’s a new dimension of love which I have learnt the latest.

You can love even when you don’t love the way this world assumes love to be.

And moreover, you may even love the way you yourself never thought of.

Things can go smoothly, you may very well carry up with studies, exra-currics, politics or whatever stuff you do in your life, even without thinking much of her, or being in contact with her, you can love a girl and wish for her well-being.

Kids in IIT (referring to freshers) find it illusionary to distinguish between love and friendship. Some feel as if their friendship is ready enough for love buds, while some, despite getting the right momentum going, aren’t ready to move further. I am bound to write all this because from my own vision I can state that whatever groups of friends or couples I saw in my batch after the end of my first year, hardly a few of them remained intact. Perhaps very few. In fact, whatever friends and groups exist today, there is no guarantee that they will exist tomorrow. These groups keep changing just like alliances during Poltu season.

Another aspect which I have discovered watching all around within my friends is that boys in IIT are mostly at the receiving end J. Now that’s not a fascinating joke or a “common, famous taunt” prevailing in IIT for years. That’s something which I have actually seen all around in recent time. Girls may definitely be good at heart (that too, in rare cases) but they always fail to understand the male clan. Here are a few opinions-

1)      All misunderstandings in a relationship start from a girl.

2)      All demands are made from the girl side. Boys have no other option than to bow down.

3)      Girls are a permanent home to a beautiful asset they possess – ATTITUDE.

4)      Girls show to everyone in this world that they are angry, and never tell the reason to you. Again, the boy is responsible for everything.

5)      Girls always EXPECT. Boys always ACCEPT. If they don’t, they are treated like hell !!!

These are just a few outcome from my ridiculous mind, something I needed to pour down after a long break from blogging. Comments are most welcome. Comments on comments will be definitely given. For more information on love and friendships in IIT Delhi, stay tuned to this website. Scroll down for some better hot stuff ……

Next blog – Poltu

Snehil Basoya.